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Unappointed
Read more: UnappointedDear lady in the row in front of us at church today, Thank you for taking your baby out of his car seat exactly when you did. During worship, I watched you and your husband diligently checking under the blanket covered car seat. At an unappointed moment, you reached in and took him out of…
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Coins
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Read more: CoinsI am struggling today with the “what ifs”. I read that the brain actually prefers guilt over helplessness. Mine is desperately trying to make sense of senselessness. Grief, it seems, can make us become our own harshest judge. I remind myself, moment to moment sometimes, that the medical professionals didn’t even know how sick you…
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Empty
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Read more: EmptyIt is another beautiful day, sweet boy. I feel a little steadier today. Still so very sad and lost but steady in this place. Steve took me to the Overlook Produce to look at plants. I was afraid of how I might react when I saw Buc-ees across the street. How you loved that place!…
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From the Loss of You
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Read more: From the Loss of YouI have never been so far from who I am. An imperceivable smile stifles the little laughter barely there that never escapes. Tears are abundant… forceful… unceasingly present and beyond my control. We are both gone yet I remain The world cruelly goes on Bills need to be paid The dryer broke Friends inquire how…
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Unpack
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Read more: UnpackIt is a beautiful day today, sweet boy. The kind of day you would sit on the swing and with furious determination scroll through your Ipad. I managed to catch up on watering plants and even repotted a couple. Still, most of the day was spent on the couch unpacking the medical trauma from two…
