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The Question
Read more: The QuestionI took Baby to get his hair cut. I think he has grown taller since you left. The hairdresser couldn’t believe he was only thirteen years old. Since we were there, I checked to see if they could squeeze me in. It has been at least two years since I had a professional haircut. They…
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The Reason
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Read more: The ReasonAfter Nathan goes to school I sit in the living room and wait for the morning sun. She begins quietly, warmly, subtly. Over a span of just minutes she presents herself, glorious and strong. The dusty windows do not deter her. She comes anyway. Last night Leane, Morgan, Chris, Audrey, and Baby Chloe came for…
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Coins
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Read more: CoinsI am struggling today with the “what ifs”. I read that the brain actually prefers guilt over helplessness. Mine is desperately trying to make sense of senselessness. Grief, it seems, can make us become our own harshest judge. I remind myself, moment to moment sometimes, that the medical professionals didn’t even know how sick you…
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Empty
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Read more: EmptyIt is another beautiful day, sweet boy. I feel a little steadier today. Still so very sad and lost but steady in this place. Steve took me to the Overlook Produce to look at plants. I was afraid of how I might react when I saw Buc-ees across the street. How you loved that place!…
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From the Loss of You
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Read more: From the Loss of YouI have never been so far from who I am. An imperceivable smile stifles the little laughter barely there that never escapes. Tears are liberal… forceful… unceasingly present and beyond my control. We are both gone yet I remain The world cruelly goes on Bills need to be paid The dryer broke Friends inquire how…
Patience to Endure 