In the land of tomorrows
I cannot find you there
Until my last one
when we will finally hug once again.
In the land of today
my being cries out as
I seek a glimpse
in the illusive breeze,
desperate to feel
perhaps you are still somehow here.
Finding only space and tears
I seek your face,
your smile,
your laugh.
My soul refuses to let go.
Connection so intricately intertwined
cannot easily be undone
even by death.
Enveloped by quietness and detested calm
cohabitating with cacophony and chaos and uncontrollable ache
as grief rages even after surrender
In the land of yesterday
is where I find you
Memories palpitate…
Your first heartbeat began in my womb
Your last ended in my arms
Oh the blessed moments in between!
During sunny moments of my soul
though few and fleeting
I see you skipping on the other
side of my last tomorrow.
I see your face,
your laugh,
your smile
Unencumbered and unrestrained
Just as you were in our yesterdays.
All that has changed is which side
of eternity each resides
It is a flat line, a last breath, a final heartbeat
that separates me from you.
It is a chasm, an inconceivability, an anguished reality
that separates you from me.
In the land of today I will hold tightly to our yesterday
Time dare not steal one single expression or smile or embrace
And I will see you again
In the land of my last tomorrow
