Soul healing is messy business. When I think of healing, my mind automatically goes to that of someone who needs to take it easy. I see someone resting in a bed somewhere. I don’t imagine the grueling hours of therapy. I don’t think of the sweat and the pain just desperately trying to get back to wherever you once were.
I like to identify with the type of healing that is passive. The type where you just lay back and let it happen to you.
Soul healing is active. It is painful. It is humbling. It is admitting you have wounds that exist and scars that didn’t heal properly. Sometimes you have to excise those scars to get the infection out. That means opening up all that festered and became rotten. It necessarily stings. It downright hurts. It is exhausting. You would just rather let it be.
Ignoring it though doesn’t mean it isn’t there and growing in strength. It will still display its existence in the form of an unkind word or a broken promise or inability to be vulnerable and truly let someone in. It will infect another. An unhealed soul is contagious and does its best to damage others.
Lean into it. Do the work. Admit when you are wrong. Make amends to those you have harmed. Forgive those who caused the broken part of you even if they never apologized. Forgive yourself. It isn’t yours to carry. Put it down.
You deserve to heal. You deserve peace. The people you love and have yet to love deserve a healed you.
Don’t be passive when it comes to your soul. Take time to cry. Rest. Seek professional help. Join a support group. Put in the sweat not to get back to where you once were but to not yield until you find a glorious new normal. And don’t ever let them tell you the damage is done whether it was to you or by you. You get to decide. It is your choice and I hope you choose to rehabilitate your soul.
“Wounds don’t heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to. It takes time for wounds to fade into scars. It takes time for the healing process to take place. Give yourself that time. Give yourself that Grace. Be gentle with your wounds. Be gentle with your heart. You deserve to heal.” – Del Olanubi